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Firstly, youtube still doesn't work. But i'm glad it doesnt, cuz then i'll be able to complete my tasks for the weekends. Like art. Gosh, i feel like i'm at the back of the line in my art. I need to do as much prep sketches as possible. I need to keep up. So youtube, right now, please dont work till i've completed ALL, and i repeat, ALL my work for the weekends. :)

The mood yesteday in school was ................ like a pile of shit UNTIL sel period came. Then i cheered up because Shalini was being such a clown. After that, had CCA. Sec 3s and 4s were suppose to turn up but instead only 6 pathetic people turn up. Some had events for Sporrts Day 1, some i dont know where they went. But since 6 people were there, we rehearsed for the performance for Sports Day. Leceh lah nk kene pakai lilin. :( But overall the practice was fun since they were only little people. xD

Im gonna go... err. what? Start on my art? Like real. I'lll start at 2.

I'm depressed. I haven't watched the updated episodes Hello Baby, Keydol and SNSD's ShimShimTapa. I haven't seen my Onew for days.

Look at what Tharshini said in our conversation:
koko('.')ae says:
*hmm!
*tharshini marries donghae, donghae has two kids, onew and taemin, onew has a girlfriend farah, taemin hasn't found one yt.. =o key apparently is dating jessica tan if i'm nt wrong, LOL! thn.. key is just an outsider one.
*omg.. sound so bad sia, "outsider"

So apprently now, I'm Onew's girlfriend, and Tharshini's daughter-in-law. xD Let's find Taemin a girlfriend alright.

And i think this is God's way of punishing me for watching too much k-pop. Why are you doing this to me?

Is this the reality that you want?!?! (Jonghyun's line)

I'm falling through air and am about to hit the ground, but i dont expect anyone to catch me.

Let me gather myself. *breathes in*

I suddenly got this random thought of moving to tumblr for no reason. Signed up, tried the themes, blah blah. And i was so attached to my posts here, i couldnt bear to start anew in tumblr, abandoning these posts. So Sayang, you know. I tried exporting and importing, and to tell you the truth, i dont even know what i was doing is correct or not. Nothing seems to work. So, i'll make this clear. Let's just stick to onsugar okay Farah?

Im sorry if my posts seem really long-winded. I type according to what i will say to myself, (aka as if im talking to myself) so, bear with me.

My class partner told me my eyebags are getting more and more obvious, and i was told that i need sleep. I do sleep! It's not that i stay up late. Well, maximum on school days is at 11.30 pm. And i wake up at 6 every morning. That's enough sleep, right? But to tell you the truth, i was already born with a small lump under my eyes,and i've been having it since i was a baby. Yea it looks like i have eyebags but no, i dont. And now, due to the late nights and stressful schoolwork, eyebags start to form and now it looks like i have 10298328 ton of eyebags under my eyes.

And someone (well, me) needs to throw away this chair that im sitting on. Its old, and torn, and ugly. I wont be surprised if it dismanteled by itself the next second. Tomorrow's gonna be a really long day. So is Wednesday. And Thursday. And Friday.

Its a long day everyday. And i hate p.e. Stupid p.e.

Shalini's 16th Birthday party was a blast. I love her family, very onz. :B Pictures will be posted on fb once i've gotten them all.

So there's this thing called the 'Cycle', which consists of little sympathetic people (which i feel sympathetic for). So basically, let me explain a little bit more about their confusing little lives.
1)Person A hates Person B
2) But they are friends
3) Person A and Person B bitch about each other
4) Goes through a whole catfight
5) But hey, one day, they're eating at McDonalds for lunch together.

Okay, so they're friends again, right? I thought so. Oh. They're not. Cuz apprently someone bitched about someone and now they're bitching about each other again.

This is really bothering me, i dont know if i can hold it in any longer. You hate her, she hates you, you bitch about her, she bitches about you, but she's your bestfriend/friend/enemy or whatever shit you guys call it. She calls you a hypocrite, but you both are. You guys are shooting bullets at each other, and im sick of looking at such pathetic people.

Why not just screw at each other's faces? Get it over and done with, rather than bitching about each other. "You're a hypocrite", "she's a bitch" blah blah blah. You're all THE SAME.

You people call each other 'two-faced', but please, look at yourself. You hate her, but the next second you're bestfriendsforever. Then when one of you bitches the other, there goes your whole bitchfest once again. Save yourselves the trouble, and just get on with your lives. If you guys hate each other, then dont be friends. What is so goddamn hard? It's a pain to see each other's face. So? Tunggu ape lagi?

I already told you that this will be another cycle. Once you're in it, be prepared to go through a whole round of shit. You didn't listen to me. You agreed with me, but you didn't listen.

All i can do now is shake my head, and feel pity for you guys. You guys are such a mess. I have a tip. WAKE UP and get yourselves together, please.

Or.. are you gonna go back to eating lunch together and laugh like nothing happened, and then when one of you offends another, you'll go back to being enemies? Oh, i think its like that. *slaps forehead*

You can say i did pretty much nothing today. I couldnt remember what i did earlier, i can only remember i had an afternoon nap. Nice, Farah.

Today can be added into the list of most-embarrassing-moments-in-my-entire-life.
1) Fell 3 times on my butt during P.E.
2) My shoe flew out of my foot when i did my standing broad jump trial.
3) Due to my classmate's non-stop laughters at me, i failed to do my best during the jump.

School was okay, remedials sucked today. I didn't know what was wrong with me. When the remedials came, i feel like everything's a mess. My schoolwork, my bag, the worksheets, the class, my table, everything. And myself.

But after remedials, went to Shalini's birthday bash.

Happy Birthday Thishalini Arumoha! Stay bubbly as always, and if i ever get angry at you, i dont mean it. Im just kidding around with you. :)

Can i possibly skip p.e tomorrow? Favour ah Rohimah, im so tired of running. I just want the stupid x-country and 2.4 napha test to be over and done with. Lucky for us, school's only till this Wednesday as Thursday's E-Learning day. And Friday's Good Friday! Yayyyyyyyy.

I spent time with Shema, Adilah and Amy after school today. Im happy because i have new stationaries. Dear Friends, please do not use em' till they're finished. In other words, please freaking buy your own.

Yeah, that reminds me how many times my pens went mysteriously missing as days go by. It's truly annoying. Come to think of this whole thing, i lost pretty much alot of valuables in my life. I lost my wallet once, lost my keys once, misplaced my POSB card twice, yes twice. And lost my social studies textbook twice (i dont think i lost it, i think people stole it from me). Oh, and about the massive number of times i forgot my things after i leave the house. I'm so disorganised, messy, clumsy or whatever negative adjetives you can think of. I need to be more well-planned about my life. Cuz its a freaking mess.

And i haven't been getting a good night sleep nowadays. That explains the sudden,massive ton of dark circles under my eyes.

I need to be stronger. Im feeling so weak and flimsy all the time. Like i can be blown away by the wind in no time. (well, i really do look like i can).

*clears throat*
Here goes my very-dramatic-emotional speech.

Hello. So, its your last day today. A very emotional last day for all of us. The thought of you leaving is.... heartbreaking, but us, dancers, have to accept the fact. These 2 years with you teaching is one of the best memories i will keep throughout my life. You taught me lessons i don't know, and gave me so much support that i need. You never fail to listen to my problems, and you give the best advice. You're just like a brother to me, and i thank you for that.

I still remember the first time i entered Malay Dance. I came in a year late than the rest, and it was very hard for me to fit in. It was mid 2008, and when everybody already has a place in Inzalisna Tari, i was like a rat finding its lost cheese. I couldn't dance at all, and i was so self-demoralizing that everytime i have to get myself back up, i fall down again, and again and again.

I didn't know Abang Khai at first, and i was really afraid of him when i first attended his class. He was really intimidating, the kind that would make you feel so insecure about yourself the moment he stepped into a room.

He was harsh. I felt really sad when i didn't get selected for performances, i started to fall back down and stopped believing in myself. I felt like i needed to talk to someone, so i took my first step to adding Abang Khai on MSN. Little did i know that all my illusions of what kind of person he is totally dissapeared as soon as we chatted. We talked about dance, experience, ways to improve. And my confidence was back. I was so ecstatic to start dancing again.

As soon as he selected me for SYF2009, he told me that he believed that i can do it. I was very doubtful of myself, but i tried and tried. And i did succeed. We achieved Gold With Honours, and i achieved an award for myself. The motivation he gives me pushes me to my limits to do better each time, and that made me the dancer i am today. And one of the mort memorable qoute you said to me,

"Menari tidak kira tinggi atau rendah, tetapi kebolehannya."

So Abang Khai, thank you for making the person i am today. If it wasn't for you, i wouldnt have discovered a new passion in myself; DANCE. If it wasn't for you, i still would be so self-demoralizing. If it wasn't for you, i wouldnt have gone through all those problems in my life with a much easier way. Inzalisna Tari will DEFINITELY miss you, stay healthy, live your life, and be happy as always. WE LOVE YOU!

Psst; ill post the farewell speech video of Abang Khai crying soon! :)

Cuz seriously, life is fxcked up and this shit is wasting my fxking time.
So much for being there, yea. And thanks for the disappointment. I like it. Do it again. And again. And again. I dont mind. :)

ciao, have a nice life.

Surprisingly, SNSD's dark concept seem to work really well. :) They look awesome in the MV. From the MV's perspective, Yoona's bangs are okay, except that it would be better if she had her hair curled like Yuri's.

For a second i thought, "Jessica stole Key's old bangs!" Which looked like it. Fits her well. :)

You know Amy, you dont have to rub it in that your Fany looks better than my Yoona. HAHHAH.

I'm currently super super worried. I dont know what to do. Im sure im not the only one. Oh farah, get yourself together pleaseeee.

my guitar + my laptop + onew = my hobby

Right now im beginning to have the urge to post at least 3 times a day, which is alot. Went to Singapore Arts Museum yesterday and i laughed my ass off with the stupid things we did. I swear that Macdonalds person looked at us as if we're freaks. I wanted to shop around Bugis, ( i was REALLY in a shopping mood yesterday) and it was only 5, but they said its better to head home now cuz the train would be packed at this hour already. So okay then, headed to JP to buy some things for dance and STUFF. Speaking of dance, Inzalisna Tari will be having a performance on the 18th, wait, its tomorrow! Located at orchard, infront of Taka. We'll be performing around.. 4 plus?(not sure about the timing too) but come and watch us! :)

Hey guys. Back with another cover. Not my best, but hope you guys like it. The video got cut at the end, and im not sure why. Enjoy!^^

Dedicated to Amy,Ter and all my friends. Oh, and Onew. hhehee just kidding.

My favourite two. <3

It's definitely clear that Jonghyun smiled more during the showcase than at the Award Show. All the fans were wondering why, and seeing him smile yesterday made us feel a little better. I think we're more of stalkers than fans, to be frank, but they know why. How can we not. C'mon man...

Or, maybe the fans = Us think too much? Maybe he was just tired ( no wait they ALL seem to be a little moody during the award show except for Onew cuz he smiles all the time ) so yea, maybe they're all tired? And they had to go 'all out' during their 3-song performance at the award show, which is super tiring and they're singing and dancing at the same time.

AinBand showed me her fancam during the showcase and i went just as hysterical as the fans who were there ( i was at home, yes). I feel sorry for my sister who has to tolerate my screams everytime i see anyone's fancam (esp the ones in singapore). I went to look up for more on youtube and helllllllllllllllll they were so close to SHINee, unlike me who can't even see their faces well at the award show. But hey, its a win-win situation for all of us, some gets to go to the Award Show, some gets to go to their showcase! Plus, they sang the same 3 songs for both events. Oh yea, the fb group "Fans who make friends with others by SHINee events" = so true!

Let's hope another one of these k-pop craze happens again in Singapore cuz i'll definitely be innnnnnnnnnnn! AinBand, ajak me if you go to any of these eh. Thanks. :D

(For the first time someone called me 'Unnie'. Bwahaha!)

These are the SHINee fancams that were taken by me and my sister during their performance. Uploaded on both fb and youtube. Gahhhh, i swear, Jonghyun looked into the camera a few times! You cant really see it in these vids cuz they pulled down the quality. But when i watched it on my camera, OHMYGOODNESSS HOTNESS OVERLOAD.

Pictures are uploaded in facebook. Let's hope they come again, and bring SNSD next time.. HAHAH!  Im jealous cuz Super Junior had their concert in Malaysia. Come to Singapore, cuz you'll make lots of money. ^^

Congrats to AinMinho(sorry i dont have a term to call you, again i know too many Ains) for being one of the lucky 3000 that gets a ticket to their showcase today! :D

&Happy One Year, Super Junior. :)

its 1 am, and i just got back from the SEA Awards. Oh My God i swore when SHINee got up on stage and performed 3 bombastic songs the 10,000 + crowd (i think it was that much, looked like it) instantly STOOD UP ON THEIR CHAIRS and freaking danced along to their freakin song!!! It was AWESOME! They all look VERY HOT IN REAL LIFE. Taemin melted the hell out of my heart, and Onew's smile made me high. Key had a new hairstyle. Omg i cant stop blabbering cuz im just so high right now i dont think i can sleep tonight. SHINee Saranghae!!

p.s: a video compilation made by me will be uploaded on fbk and youtube tmr. stay tuned.

SHINee's in Singapore AGAIN and i cant wait for the award show on Saturday!!!!! Row 3 baby!

Dear God, please give me more luck on Saturday. I didn't get to achieve what i want during the fansign, and im really looking forward to Saturday.

luv, farah.

i found this picture of me a few weeks back, under the stacks of nostalgic baby photos of my family. Dont laugh.

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Oh c'mon. my two front teeth was missing. But i still looked cute, right? xD

Ok so here's Fifie. I have made SOOOOO many attempts to take one decent picture with Sweety, but i fail everytime cuz she'll run away. Sweety ni eh play hard to get man.

Im suppose to feel fresh after i wake up. Its Saturday. But why is my body feeling so heavy and my shoulders are hurting so bad.

I WILL, i repeat, WILL watch Invincible Youth on KBS Channel today. I have missed 2 episodes already, including the repeat telecasts. How cannnnnn?! And great, i missed Star Date yesterday night. Pffft.

So had dance yesterday and had to teach the juniors the SYF Dance. I snatched Shakira and Syahizah (idk if i spelt their names correctly or not) and they're both sec 1s. But i was super shocked that they cooperated so well that they can digest most of the steps all at once. And when i gave them water break, they only drank a sip and continued practicing by themselves when i was cooling myself down under the fan in the dance studio. So when Abang khai directed the juniors to dance, they only danced a little as some of them only learnt till a certain step. And i can see Shakira and Syahizah wanting to do more. Relax uh korang. Tkmuh nervous.

I asked them how was dance, and they said they liked it cuz it feels like they're back to dancing as they were dancers in pri sch. i asked them which is better, and they said secondary school as they're more things to do and learn. I hope they did not just say that for the sake of answering. Hahaha. But anws, thumbs up to ALL THE SENIORS and JUNIORS! Oh ya, the Zambia dance that the 6 of them danced, confirm the whole school mulut ternganga eh bler tengok. xD

I'm loving mama's Nasi Ayam Penyet!

pssst; kakak gave me her holga. WHOAAA! ;D